What Abby needed, she wouldn’t say. She found Josh’s
brochure somewhere, liked what it said and the way it looked. She giggled as
she admitted she was drawn to his photo on the brochure. She knew what she did
not want. She did not want Josh to use hypnosis on her. She did not want to
lose control. Someone had done that to her before and she felt manipulated. She
thinks he seduced her under hypnosis. Josh assured her he would only support
her on her path, he would not offer anything she did not want to do.
~ ~ ~
Josh attended a workshop on learning to use his intuition. On
several occasions, they had to pair up with a partner from the group. They were
to get information intuitively about a relative of the partner so that
information could be confirmed or refuted by the partner. For one exercise, they tuned in to a relative
who was alive. For another, they were to tune in to a dead relative.
Janet sought to connect with Josh’s grandfather on his
father’s side, Andreas. She said that Andreas told her he understood Josh now,
he understood what he was doing with his life and he supported him. It
certainly was a message Josh loved to hear, because he had felt so
misunderstood by his family since childhood, but it was not a message that proved
Janet had truly connected with his grandfather.
Josh sought information about Janet’s mother. As he closed
his eyes, and took deep breaths to relax and be open to her mother, he saw a
middle aged man, trying to pull a woman his age out of a fire. Her hair was
dark and disheveled, long enough to reach her shoulder blades. Her dress was
simple, uniformly navy blue or black. She resisted him, her face in pain,
looking away from him. He had short brown hair and wore a white shirt with sleeves
rolled up above his elbows. Neither one of them was on fire. The man came out
alone. He could not save the woman. Janet did not know what to make of Josh’s
vision. There had been no fires involving her parents. The teacher encouraged
them to think metaphorically. What could the fire represent? Janet said that
her mother was deeply depressed and her father had to leave her because he was
getting burned out.
That experience convinced Josh he was able to tap into information
one could not rationally know, information that involved people he had never met,
whether dead or not. He was left with a feeling that the message from his grandfather
could be real, that Grandpa Andreas really cared about him and his family more
than he had known. He felt joy from this thought.
~ ~ ~
Abby had abandoned the Catholic Church as a teenager. She
felt ostracized from her family. After a few sessions with Josh, she reconnected
with her Christian roots. Josh was Catholic from his upbringing. He felt a
kinship with any path that has love as its core. He had come to a place where he
heard a common message conveyed by all religions: to love one’s neighbor, to be
humble, and to be of service. He met many who preferred to commit to one
religion and, within it, to a specific denomination. He respected that.
His goal was to help people love themselves and be the best
human being they wanted to be. With this kind of support, the rest seemed to
fall into place with time. Abby came to believe that her God and her Jesus
Christ were different from Josh’s.
To Josh, she had become color blind to some of the colors that
make a true Christian. To her, she was concerned about false Gods; she was not color
blind, but she became convinced certain colors were less divine than others. Josh
thought the best way to help her was to allow her to explore that path and he
asked her if she had gotten what she wanted from their work together. She
wanted to keep meeting with him.
